I am Sister Xu Hang from the Shanxi Streamside Group. Thank God for leading me to Rich in Christ Church. Thank God for completely healing my severe depression through the intercession of Pastor Rich Wang, and giving me the ability to live and work normally again. Thank God for giving me the opportunity to bear glorious witness for God.

Led by God to Rich in Christ Church to seek God's healing

1. Healed by God

Around October 2020, I was working in Taiyuan, with a lot of work pressure and a little financial pressure. I found myself nervous for no reason and had poor sleep. Because of excessive anxiety, I could not fall asleep until very late at night, had difficulty falling asleep, and had nightmares when I fell asleep; I woke up inexplicably in the morning, felt panic and palpitations, and was particularly depressed; I lay down when I got home from get off work, didn't want to move at all, didn't want to do anything; I couldn't help but feel irritable and anxious; I had no appetite and didn't want to eat. Although I can still communicate normally with people, because my psychological pressure is already very great and I can't stand the high tension, I wonder if I have a tendency to depression, so I went to a hospital that treats mental depression and anxiety to see a psychiatrist. The result of the examination was that I suffered from severe depression, and the doctor prescribed me a week of antidepressant drugs.

After taking the medicine, I no longer felt panic and palpitations, but the whole person was like a wooden man who couldn't think. The symptoms of depression were still there. I was at a loss about things and didn't know how to respond to people and things around me. When my mother chatted with me, she felt that my condition was not right, and I really couldn't work, so she let me go back to my hometown.

In March 2021, I was led by God to Rich in Christ Church. In the case that Pastor Rich Wang didn't know me, God told Pastor Wang about my situation under the supernatural revelation of the Holy Spirit, saying that there was a demon in me. When God said this through Pastor Wang, I felt that something inside was lit up, just like the bricks in the dark and damp ground behind the house were lifted up, and the centipedes ran away when they saw the light. I was no longer afraid and began to be released.

After the Sunday, God served me through Sister Shengai, helping me to clean up my sin problems, pointing out my sins, and reminding me of the specific aspects I needed to repent. Pastor Rich Wang prayed for me, and my depression symptoms were soon completely healed by God. I became happy, my mood improved, I was no longer irritable, I had an appetite, wanted to eat, slept well, and could chat with my parents. Hallelujah, thank God!

2. I left God without repentance and fell into depression again

Pastor Wang said, "God gives us grace, allowing us to get on the boat first and buy tickets later. As long as we have faith, we can be healed first, and then we need to confess and repent." But after I got on the boat, I didn't want to buy a ticket again, I relaxed, only confessed, and didn't repent. Because I was anxious to find a job and make money, I didn't listen to God's words through His servant Pastor Rich Wang, "You should not be allowed to go to Taiyuan." At that time, I didn't listen to the advice, was rebellious and hardened, and didn't believe what God's servant Pastor Rich Wang said. I thought to myself that I would go to Taiyuan again to "try it out", what if I succeeded?

In July and August 2021, I went to Taiyuan again with this idea in mind, and deleted the Skype and Zoom apps on my phone. I was not satisfied with my condition, doubted God’s healing, and even complained a little. I didn’t want to have any contact with Pastor Wang and Rich in Christ Church. After arriving in Taiyuan, things were not what I thought. I was depressed again, especially painful, deceived and bound by the devil, and even wrote words to complain about God, “God is in the sky above, not in the dust with me.”

Sister Zhang often gently reminded me to attend Sunday meetings, but I felt uninterested and didn’t believe it. I only wanted to make money, so I just dealt with it. In this way, I put God aside and continued to stay away from God. On the contrary, I often watched Douyin to numb myself (because Douyin has some things that can satisfy people’s depressed and resentful emotions), and I committed the sin of lust and offended God.

I felt cold in my heart. I didn’t know where the joy and release I got when I attended the Sunday meetings of Rich in Christ Church and was served and cleansed my sins had gone. The spirit of sorrow, worry, disbelief, and death kept disturbing me. Because I was sometimes unhappy and uncomfortable, I doubted whether I was well. In fact, these are emotions that normal people would have, but my excessive worry made me doubt and often worried. Moreover, I was deceived by the lies of the evil one at that time. I felt that it was shameful to be served by Pastor Wang and his wife, because I didn’t believe that I was well and felt that I was not well.

At the beginning, I lived in my cousin’s house. I didn’t dare to tell my cousin and his wife that God served me through Pastor Rich Wang and his wife, so that my severe depression was healed by God. Instead, I told them that the way I was served was like a class taught by a psychologist. When I was served by my wife (hiding from them in the community yard) and participated in the Sunday gathering, I was sneaky and didn’t dare to tell my cousin and his wife, let alone preach the gospel to them. In this way, I kept accepting the thoughts sent by the evil one, not alert and resisting, and soon it became extremely difficult for me to work.

This situation continued until March 2022. When I really couldn’t work normally, I returned home. After returning home, I was bound and controlled by the devil, and my depression symptoms became more severe:

—I had no appetite, no hunger, no thirst, and other normal physiological needs. When it was time for dinner, my mother brought the food. If I didn’t have any reaction and she reminded me, I would not eat; or if the food was scalding hot, I would ignore it and pour it into my stomach at high speed.

—I was afraid to sleep. Every night I prayed to God to let me die in my sleep, because it was particularly painful to wake up and be alive. I didn’t want to go to bed. When I went to bed, I would be motionless like a sculpture, breathing heavily; or I would lie quietly on the floor in a corner of the house where no one was.

—I didn’t distinguish between day and night, and had no concept of time;

—I didn’t talk all day, didn’t communicate with others; I would sneak out whenever I had the chance during the day, and when I went out, I would stay in places with few people and difficult to be found; because I felt very depressed and had difficulty breathing at home.

I was extremely painful, and I found the teacher’s wife again. The teacher’s wife did not blame me at all, but said worriedly, fortunately you still have a heart to seek God.

3. God led me to confess and repent, and severe depression was healed again

Starting from March 21, the pastor's wife served me for the second time, leading me to confess the sins of lust and promiscuity, and not being alert and resisting. She served me again and again. Thank God for loving me and not abandoning me. I have been connected with Pastor Wang and his wife again.

I continued to attend meetings, but because I could not distinguish which thoughts were sent by Satan, I was not alert and could not resist. I was always controlled by various spirits of discouragement, fear, and fear of death. My mother watched me every minute and every second, afraid that I would run away and not be found.

Pastor Wang also asked my mother to lead me to start reading the Bible, praying, and praising.

At the beginning, I could not read the Bible, pray, and praise, and I could not open my mouth. It seemed that the words of the Bible and I were like magnets of the same level repelling each other. It seemed that there was a force that directly pushed me away from the Bible (and even spiritual activities). My mother taught me one sentence at a time, and my mother read a sentence and asked me to follow and declare a sentence. And as the pastor's wife said, learn to be alert and resist. My mother helped remind me to resist the negative thoughts and ideas inside. Gradually, I started from not being able to do anything, including washing dishes and sweeping the floor, to being able to do some simple housework, but I still didn't dare to walk out of the door alone; sweeping the floor, washing my face and other things could not be completed continuously. I often picked up this and put that down, and kept struggling. It was difficult to choose and I didn't know the normal order of doing things.

After Pastor Wang and his wife served my mother to confess and repent, my mother began to learn to let go and let me learn to resist by myself. She changed the way she helped me, prayed for me silently behind my back, and kept sending messages to Pastor Rich Wang. I was still often disturbed by various thoughts, and there was fear, and I was often pulled back to those feelings of bondage.

Once God said through Pastor Rich Wang: I cooperated with the devil and was the devil's accomplice. What he said that time woke me up, and I felt that I must be strong. So, I started reading the Bible, praising, and praying by myself, and I also listened to Pastor Wang's teachings and began to build a family altar.

When my mother attended the altar prayer, she heard them praying in tongues, and I also longed for tongues. On May 22, when my mother attended the Ruyun altar prayer, I heard tongues. Thank God, from then on I had confidence in God. Thank God, this was the beginning and confirmation of my faith being strengthened.

Later, I remembered what Pastor Rich Wang said when he was interpreting the Bible: If we do not continue to confess our sins, repent, and pursue God, and do not read the Bible and pray to build a spiritual life, the devil will attack again, and even more seriously, as it is written in the Bible: "When an unclean spirit leaves a person, it passes through dry places, seeking rest. But when it finds none, it says, 'I will return to my house from which I came.' And when it arrives, it finds it swept and put in order. Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they enter and dwell there. The last state of that man is worse than the first." (Luke 11:25-26) With Pastor Wang's intercession and the ministering of his wife, I began to move from only confessing my sins without repenting to the right path of not only confessing my sins but also being willing to repent.

I also encountered another problem, which was that I could not edit messages on my mobile phone, and I could not organize my language. I would delete a few words after writing them, and repeat this over and over again for a long time. After writing one or two sentences and sending them out, I would immediately withdraw them.

In June 2022, during the [Ray Ministry-Healing and Revival] special meeting of Trinity Abundant Christian Church, I saw so many miracles happening in Trinity Abundant Church. Through the prayers of His servant Pastor Rich Wang, many patients were healed by God: the deaf heard, the dumb spoke, the lame walked, and patients with various cancers and leukemia were completely healed. I was very excited at the time. Every time I heard that inspiring song and saw Pastor Wang helping the lame man to stand up, I was so excited that I wanted to cry. Seeing God's continuous healing and salvation, His hand was working, and my faith was lifted.

I was immersed in the constant flow of God's anointing, and unknowingly my life had undergone a transformation: gradually, I ate and drank normally, and I no longer felt suffocated when sleeping; the previous constant desire to die was gone, and the feelings of discouragement, disappointment, inferiority and self-pity gradually eased; I had favorite foods and was not so picky about food; I could organize my language normally and edit complete messages on my mobile phone. Hallelujah! Thank God!

 

2. God gave me a new job

1. Find a new job

On June 18 (Saturday), I sent a prayer message to Pastor Rich Wang saying that I wanted to find a job and asked Pastor Wang to pray for me. After the prayer message was sent, I received it by faith and went out to find a job by myself. Before that, I didn't even want to step out of my bedroom door. Thank God for releasing me.

I went directly to a kindergarten, which was very close to my home. Several kindergarten leaders were there that day. After the on-site interview, less than 2 hours later, I received a notice that I could go to work next Monday (June 20).

Thank God, in fact, it was very difficult for me to take this step. But in fact, God's work is very simple and fast: at that time, I only had one idea, as long as I sent a prayer message to Pastor Rich Wang, God listened to Pastor Wang's prayer, I made cooperative and obedient actions, went out to find a job, and God would accomplish it for me. Thank God for letting me experience Him accomplishing impossible, big and difficult things for me, and making them possible. Thank and praise God, all glory and praise to God!

After work, I kept sending messages to Pastor Wang, relying on God to support everything through Pastor Wang's intercession. Soon, I gradually developed order and a sense of time from the initial disorder, confusion, and lack of time. I didn't know how to speak and communicate, had no language procedures, and no logic. With the help of God's intercession through Pastor Wang, I gradually changed. The fluency of speaking gradually recovered, even surpassing the state before depression. The obstacles to communicating with people were gradually eliminated by God. I no longer had any problems going out alone. I could easily complete housework at home, such as cleaning, mopping the floor, and cooking.

Thank God! At Rich in Christ Church, God released the anointing of the supernatural healing of the Holy Spirit through the prayers of His servant Pastor Rich Wang, so that my severe depression was completely healed by God, and I was pulled back from the brink of death. Not only can I work normally, but I can also participate in the church's Sunday school service.

After I served for a period of time, God improved my work ability and Sunday school teaching ability, and I was recognized and affirmed by the kindergarten principal and the church Sunday school management colleagues. Hallelujah, glory and praise to God!

I don’t have a teacher’s qualification certificate. My previous job was to take care of children in daycare (before kindergarten), and I took early childhood education courses. When I applied for the job, their person in charge said that if I passed the interview, I could not only work during the week, but also come here on Saturdays and Sundays to take early childhood education classes and earn class fees.

At that time, I wanted to earn this money in my heart, and I was relatively familiar with the work content of early childhood education, but the Holy Spirit reminded me that I should not stop gathering, so I refused the work on Saturdays and Sundays.

At that time, the person in charge said that my probation period was 3 months, and if I performed well, I might be promoted to regular in advance, and my salary would be 800 yuan more after promotion.

2. Early promotion of work

On July 7, I sent a prayer message to Pastor Rich Wang for early promotion, but in fact, I had only been working here for 18 days.

On Friday afternoon, July 8, when the kindergarten held a meeting, the person in charge actually informed me that I could be promoted. Thanks to God through the prayer of Pastor Rich Wang, I was supposed to be able to become a regular employee after the 3-month probation period, but now I have become a regular employee in just 19 days. Hallelujah, thank and praise God!

I have not worked for a long time, and I have forgotten how to work and how to get along with people. With my ability and condition, it is amazing that I can stay and work, and it is impossible to become a regular employee so quickly.

I know very well that I was unable to work at that time. Thanks to God through the prayer of Pastor Rich Wang, I was lifted up, so that I can not only continue to work, but also the atmosphere of the class I am in is the best in the whole kindergarten.

Another teacher in my class said that the head teacher of our class is the director of teaching and research and the principal of the kindergarten. She is the best leader in taking care of teachers. I know this is all God's grace.

There is a teacher in my class who has been working here for two years. She asked me more than once, "What is your relationship with me?" She also said, "You are really lucky. You almost never skip classes. Other teachers are always transferred back and forth and often change classes. Some teachers have been here for several months but have not been promoted. You were promoted not long after you came. You also came to our class (the head teacher takes special care of us and the atmosphere in the class is very good). You don't know that new teachers usually need to skip classes before they are assigned to their posts. It is troublesome to skip classes and requires strong adaptability. You are really lucky!"

Hallelujah, thank and praise God. I don't have any special interpersonal relationships. My relationships are heavenly relationships. I came to the church to confess and repent, and God prayed for me through Pastor Wang.

After the salary list for June 2023 came out, I found that among the new teachers, my performance and salary were the highest. Thank God, this is all God's grace. Pastor Rich Wang silently prayed for me behind the scenes. All glory and praise go to God! Thank you for the hard work of the pastor! May God remember the pastor! Amen!

3. God Improves My Work Ability

Before I became depressed, I was extremely proud of my work ability. I thought I was very capable at work, and I was so proud that I sinned and offended God. I was very proud and conceited because I was lively in class and could hold multiple positions at the same time. I thought I was great. After I became severely depressed, I lost my ability to work. The courses in the new unit were very difficult. I could not submit the lesson plans on time. I could not even handle the simplest teaching that I thought before.

Thank God! Because I was in Rich in Christ Church, I began to walk the path of confession and repentance. I sent prayer messages to Pastor Wang many times, asking God to improve my work ability. I received the anointing of God in work released by Pastor Rich Wang many times, and my work ability has improved significantly.

When I first came to this unit, I stuttered when I gave lectures. I didn’t know the next sentence after finishing the previous sentence. I didn’t even know what class I was in. I finished the class carelessly and awkwardly, and made frequent mistakes.

In the process of my wife helping me to confess and repent, and listening to Wang Pastor's life-revelation interpretation and sermons, and brothers and sisters sharing their testimonies, I realized that I was particularly proud, sinned against God, and stole God's glory, because the power comes from God, and we should give glory to God. Now I will send prayer messages to Pastor Wang during class, asking God to control my class.

Before class, I rely on the Lord to write lesson plans; during class, I was surprised to find that the children were very active in class, the classroom atmosphere was particularly good, and they had a lot of interaction with me. Our head teacher looked at me differently. When I was teaching, she would take videos and edit them carefully to prepare promotional videos.

When I first came to the kindergarten, I didn't know how to write lesson plans. I didn't finish writing lesson plans several times. My colleagues finished several quickly, but I didn't finish one. There was a big gap.

Before, I was bound by the devil, and I couldn't write clearly, couldn't form a complete sentence, and scribbled and scribbled. I couldn't see clearly, and had to guess. So I didn't submit the lesson plan for several inspections (also because I didn't finish writing the lesson plan on the same day, and procrastinated). I also stayed up late to make up for it several times, which was very distressing. For this reason, I sent messages to Pastor Wang several times, thanking God for his mercy and help. After I worked hard to write the lesson plan for a period of time, I was finally able to complete the writing of the lesson plan on time. Later, the leader took the initiative to find me and said that you don't need to write lesson plans in the future! I said I can write it, and the leader said that I don't need to write it anymore. Hallelujah, thank and praise God! It's great!

Thank God, after coming to Rich in Christ Christian Church, God not only healed and released me, prepared work for me, but also improved my work ability.

When I first arrived at the unit, I never prepared lessons in advance, and I was particularly worried about teaching; God changed my mind. Now I start to study lessons seriously, and I also know that I need to prepare in advance before class. I also have a sense of time and know the daily process of kindergarten.

Thank God, this is all after I came to Rich in Christ Church, God through the teaching of Pastor Rich Wang, I began to realize this, and was changed by God. Now my classroom atmosphere is very active, and the children like me very much, and often some children say to me "I like you".

In September 2023, God helped me to skip the class directly after I was promoted to the middle class. There are only ten children and three teachers. The work is very easy and the body is not tired. I can also improve my ability to lead the children in the big class. The original head teacher said that the big leader directly named me to the new big class without her consent. This is really God's grace. Thank God for treating me with great grace and giving me such an opportunity. Glory to God.

This also reminds me of my previous pride and reminds me that all grace comes from God. Since I came to Rich in Christ Church and walked the path of confession and repentance, I have personally experienced such great grace from God. God has also constantly renewed my mind and thoughts, and constantly done the work of "pulling out, demolishing, building, and planting" in me to remove the filth in me and build my spiritual life! How wonderful! Thank and praise God!

 

4. Longing for spiritual life, participating in service, and starting to preach the gospel and bear witness

1. Establish a life of prayer

God taught me through Pastor Rich Wang. I kept confessing and repenting, listened carefully to the sermons, and took notes carefully. Pastor Wang told us that any thought that tells us to stay away from God comes from the devil; the thought that makes us close to God comes from the Holy Spirit. Thank God, I had a hard time distinguishing before, and Pastor Wang's words reminded me. Now I keep resisting thoughts from the devil. Occasionally, I have negative thoughts, and I also rely on the Lord to resist them, and start to build a spiritual life.

From not reading the Bible and praying before, to reading the Bible and signing in now, I pray more and more. At first, I prayed in the morning and at night. Slowly, when I encountered things in life, I also began to pray.

Later, I downloaded a software, and I would write down my prayers to Abba Heavenly Father. I told Abba Heavenly Father about happy, unhappy, long, and short things. I felt as happy as if I had eaten honey, and my heart was always happy! Thank and praise God! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! This is something I never thought of before! Thank God!

Once, I was enlightened by God in prayer and saw my spiritual situation (that is, the transformation of my inner life and thoughts). I cried and said to God: Abba, I was a lazy, unruly and unrestrained person. After coming to the church, you changed me. I actually had a sense of mission. This was the first time in my life that I felt a "holy sense of mission". I was willing to serve God, participate in the Golden Incense Burner Intercession Altar, participate in Sunday school service, and preach the gospel!

When I first participated in the altar prayer, I was not very loyal. I often had something to do or felt sleepy, so I just didn't participate. Later, after sending a prayer message to Pastor Wang, I was enlightened by the Holy Spirit and revealed my unfaithful sin. I quickly sent a message to Pastor Wang: Ask God to have mercy on me and forgive my unfaithful sin, and help me to serve faithfully in the altar prayer. After I received it by faith, God worked in me, so that I gradually had a burden for the altar prayer. I was no longer so sleepy at the altar prayer, and I tried not to miss it.

2. Start serving in Sunday school

In August 2022, I started to serve in the church's Sunday school. When I first started as an assistant teacher, I was very nervous. Because I couldn't concentrate at the time, it was very laborious, and I was not proficient in the operation of computers and mobile phones. I needed to watch the video repeatedly to make a table.

Teacher Zhang, who was in charge of Sunday school, asked me if I was willing to be the main teacher. I hesitated and had no confidence. I agreed to learn how to operate, but I didn't take action for a long time. I was very worried and always found a lot of excuses for myself. The first time I was the main teacher, I couldn't make my PPT for a long time. With the help of Teacher Zhao who was in the class with me, I completed the PPT. It was late at night when I finished it.

After feeling stressed and anxious about serving in Sunday school, I sent a prayer message to Pastor Wang in order to do a good job in Sunday school service, and received it by faith. After that, I was no longer so sad and worried about Sunday school. I began to prepare actively and pray for Sunday school.

Thank God for listening to me and giving me another chance to be the main lecturer. I definitely agreed. I sent a prayer message to Rich Wang and received it by faith. After praying, I started to make PPT. Thank God for leading me to modify and make PPT and helping me to modify the words of PPT. During the process, I was very focused and my thoughts were clear. He also led and helped me find a suitable background.

When listening to my lecture, the person in charge, Teacher Zhang, praised my ability to make PPT and lectures for being greatly improved. This is exactly what I sent to Pastor Wang and prayed for. Thank God, glory to God! When I was in class on Sunday, I thanked God for His grace and help, so that I was not nervous during the class, which exceeded my expected state. Hallelujah, thank and praise God, all glory and praise to God, Amen! Thank God for saving me from the severe depression that was about to die through Pastor Rich Wang and his wife.

3. Start preaching the gospel and bear witness for the Lord

In the past, I loved the world and was attracted by the world. Although some people know that I believe in the Lord, I never take the initiative to preach the gospel and rarely talk to others about faith. I feel that preaching the gospel in this way is a disgrace to God's name.

During a Bible interpretation, Pastor Shengfeng said that the Lord Jesus came to the world to fulfill the Father's will on Him, just like people are satisfied after eating food. Hearing this, I began to hope that I could preach the gospel and work with the Lord.

Once at work, my phone accidentally played a hymn in the Lord. I quickly said, "What is this?" After saying this, I suddenly realized that I actually regarded the songs in the Lord as shameful and wanted to cover them up. I blushed immediately. I confessed to God and quickly sent a serious message to Pastor Wang and his wife about this issue, saying that I had discovered this wrong thing in myself, and asked Pastor Rich Wang to pray for me and ask God to have mercy on me and help me, and ask God to forgive and pardon me! Only then did I realize that I had always been ashamed of the gospel, so I could not preach the gospel and bear witness. I confessed and repented to God, and God began to burden me with the matter of preaching the gospel.

Thanks to God for leading me, I went to Taiyuan to preach the gospel to my cousin and shared my testimony. Before, I was afraid of the evil spirit behind her because she believed in Buddhism and did not dare to admit that I was being served in the church. This time, I bravely told my cousin about the changes in me and my family after I came to Rich in Christ Church.

With this experience of preaching the gospel, God led me to overcome my nervousness and fear. Later, I shared my testimony about me and my family with my grandmother: I was saved by God when I was depressed to death; my financial situation was turned around; God gave me a job; my younger brother was admitted to school; my parents' relationship changed. These are the miracles that God performed in my family through the intercession of His servant Pastor Rich Wang after I came to Rich in Christ Church. While listening to me, my grandmother kept saying "You can't not believe in the Lord", and she said it three times in a row, and also said, "It's good to believe in the Lord, I actually believe in it too, let your father believe it too."

I also went to my grandmother to bear witness to my healing and release by God, and also to my colleagues to preach the gospel and bear witness!

Thank God for letting me break through the obstacles of preaching the gospel. From not daring to actively admit that I am a Christian to having the burden to preach the gospel and bear witness for God, Hallelujah, thank and praise God, all glory and praise go to God!

5. Jesus is my beauty

Before confessing and repenting, I would not eat or drink when I was sick. I used to be particularly vain and concerned about my appearance. I did not wash my face for a long time. My face was extremely dark yellow, even gray, and ugly. After confessing and repenting at Rich in Christ Church, God enlightened me about the sin of over-valuing appearance and often treating "appearance" as an idol. I sent messages to Pastor Rich Wang, the servant of God, many times, asking God to remove my heart that valued appearance. I also often received the anointing released by Pastor Rich Wang, the servant of God. My complexion is ruddy and shiny, my skin is much more delicate, and I look much younger. Many people say that they can't tell my actual age. Thank and praise God! Pastor Rich Wang said: Jesus is our beauty! Hallelujah, I really experienced it! There is really nothing missing in the Lord Jesus Christ. Thank and praise God, all glory and praise go to God! In the name of the Lord Jesus! Amen!